Amazing!

This week has been so much less stressful than last week. I finally screwed up my courage and told the music director at church that I simply had to quit everything. That I would be out of adult choir indefinitely; that I’d be willing to help with kids’ choir, but not to be the lead teacher; and that I would stay with the bell choir until Christmas and see how I felt about continuing it in the new year.

(I couldn’t just drop bells, as we have a small group, we are performing in two weeks, and there’s not time to replace me. I suppose it’s an excuse. If I were in a terrible accident and paralyzed, God forbid!, they’d jolly well have to do without me. But I haven’t been, and right now I think I can handle this one thing.)

Anyway, so I didn’t go to Sunday School on Sunday; I just went to main service. I sat in the pew and really rested. Monday was a little crazy, with kids’ basketball practise and my professionals group meeting, but my parents picked up the kids from practise, so that worked out. Yesterday, we went home after I left work for the day. We got some laundry done, and we changed the kids’ bed linens. We also swapped out the percales for flannels in the linen closet, since the weather is getting cooler now. I’m not dreading church tonight, as I haven’t the responsibility of teaching the kids choir and I don’t have to stay afterward for adult choir.

It’s not that I mind doing any of these things. It’s just that I was doing too much and neglecting my family and home. And I wasn’t allowing myself enough down time to protect my health. Bad idea.

So I’ll get well and get the house picked up, and then I can try adding back the adult choir. I don’t want to ever teach kids choir again. The kids these days are too bad. They won’t behave, and that makes it too stressful.

Tags: challenges, choir, church, medical issues, single parenting, stress