Discouraged
Funny how things can roll along okay, and then suddenly, BAM!, something gets you and knocks you flat.
I’m profoundly sad tonight. Not sure why, really. There have been some minor disappointments and worries over the last few days, but nothing worth getting really down over. I’ve just finished moving all my archived e-mails from my old e-mail address to my new one, and in categorizing them, I had to read some things that were probably better not remembered. Same with the old blog posts that I’m migrating from my old Blogit blogs to the Audio, Video, Disco archive.
Maybe it’s the combination of those things, plus being tired and in pain. I’ve pulled a muscle in my left calf …. the same one I hurt several months ago. I understand that I will always have trouble with that muscle in both legs, as I have ruptured them both in the past (at different times, both stupid). The gastrocnemius is a bad muscle to mess up, because of the way it hooks up with the soleus and the Achilles tendon — from what I understand, it doesn’t heal as quickly or as permanently as other muscles do. I’ve also got tendonitis in my right Achilles, thanks to overstretching it by sliding on the ice last week. I’m icing both of those nightly, and taking plenty of Aleve. I’ve also tripled my calcium / magnesium / potassium intake. And my left wrist is playing up again — I have a pinched nerve from the wreck in 2005, and sometimes it causes my wrist to ache and swell. Again, ice and Aleve, plus a wrist brace, usually knocks it back to normal in short order. If that doesn’t work, I’ll have to schedule a special trip to the chiropractor to get that nerve un-pinched again.
And the tired part is me not being disciplined. I ought to be in bed asleep by 2200 every night, but this week I’ve been doing stuff after work and after karate, and I’ve not gotten to bed before 2330 most nights.
Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday and it is supposed to be a quiet weekend. I think I will sleep in a lot and try to get back on my usual bedtime schedule. And get some projects done so I don’t have so many things nagging at me from all sides.